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Had been an interesting start to the weekend. Firstly, I saw some long lost-in-touch relations visiting Brisbane.

I didn’t think much of it until we actually saw each other in the flesh, I mean it’s only been (what 30 years?) since? Yes, loooong time no see. But thanks to Facebook and Whatsapp, it can’t be that alien, right?

Wrong. Couldn’t be wrong-er. Tears flowed, yep.

Then the good-old-days’ reminiscence.

Then the how’s-everyone-else “gossips” 😄

Then the group photos.

And goodbyes, again, tears and emotion.

It is so interesting. I left home at a young age and never returned for a good 30 years. It’s a long void and their memory of me stopped in time the moment I was absent from family catch-up and reunion meals. I have never been a big post-er on social media, “who cares about me?” and privacy are major factors. And of course, who posts the mundane in their life and make a big deal out of it?

But that’s exactly what brings people together, I realised; not just the good news and picture perfect photoshots; but the mundane. They had no way of knowing my life, unless I had shared them. Isn’t that what social media was meant for? Surely not just for bikini-perfect figures or delicious looking salivating baked goods? What’s wrong with frustrations, grief, helplessness and ugly truth of my life; splashed on my Facebook page???

Hmmmm…. Food for thought….. Kudos to you who bare your heart on social media 👏

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Today we witnessed my mother-in-laws baptism. Amazing. Never would I have thought of this happening, ever. God’s incredibly able.

Sermon was on Romans 6, the significance of baptism and crucifixion of the old self. I’ve thought that baptism is only for new believers, but today’s message was equally applicable to me – without burying the old self, Christ cannot reign in our lives. Without Christ leading in our lives, our old sinful body holds the territory and we continue in the struggle of sin and death.

Solution? Daily baptism. No, not dunking in water everyday, but to cruxify our sinful body or subject ourselves to Christ daily; put to death our bodily/earthly desire and subject them for Christ’s cleansing blood worthy for His cause. No longer I but He living in me, lesser of me but He is enlarged.

Thank you for the wisdom and truth that sets us free, that gives eternal lives over sufferings. Amen.

I knew my penpal through her blog, http://www.hipfood.wordpress.com. Even though in different hemisphere and continents, God brought her into my life one fateful night as I was bawling my eyes out over troubled times. Her prayers, encouragement, and similar struggle she’s been through; helped me to my feet and miraculously, I survived.

The other day I had a sister-in-christ shared with me her struggle and dilemma. As I listened to her, my heart hears and I felt for her; simply because I’ve been through the same pit and slimy clay myself. Even if I hadn’t come through my own story victorious, but at least she can somewhat reap the benefit of hindsight I wished I had then.

What I want to say is this – we go through crap in life, fall into pits, experience pain – in all this, there is a God who uses this for a purpose greater than the bad stuff itself. We can be better listener, prayer partner, comforter as a result. Let’s not waste our stories, let not our pain be in vain. Let us not waste God’s “gift” to us and do nothing with it; like the lazy servant in Matthew 25, who hadn’t done anything with the 1000 talent. Win souls like the other two smart servants, you’d never know what difference you might make to others’ lives, like my penpal had to mine.

One of a very famous film star in my days is Chow Yun Fatt, 周润发. Graceful and handsome in his younger days, an excellent and versatile actor. In his 60s, he lives a humble commoner life and not any celebrity air about him, at least that’s what I’ve read in this gossip article.

He’s not a believer, his belief however teaches him to be content with what he has and love others; all this makes him a good role model for others within and outside of the entertainment industry.

As I read this, I began to wonder – even though a non-believer, he’s respected, trusted, and influential; this is as good as it gets, this is life, isn’t it? Why Christ then?

Yes, this is as good as one can get in this lifetime. If a believer, however, he will have eternal life; that is, more than just living. If we wish to lead a good life, we don’t need Christ; but if we want more than just staying alive this lifetime, we got to accept Christ and live like Him.

Simple truth. But easily confuses us if our sight is set on this journey alone. May God help us see clearly.

p.s. I’m not being arrogant just because I’m now a Christian – very important reminder for all believers here http://whenisayiamachristian.com/

2018 Sep 13

Today’s encouragement is in Psalm 130:4 – that the Lord forgives us because of His great love (v. 7a), so that we fear Him. I was amazed that He wants us to fear Him; ahem, not out of fear from punishment or scorn; but because of His great love!

How beautiful are you Lord, how gracious and worthy. May we fear the Lord, for He is worthy. Amen

This week has been quite amazing, I had a few revelations:

  1. Commit my finances to the mininum tithe
  2. Surrender myself and lay down my guide (I really resonated with lyrics of New Wine, “lay down my old flames, to carry Your new fire today”)
  3. Follow a routine with my daily devotion
  4. Share with my mum a worship song sang at fellowship today, so she could possibly share with my aunties, who are devout buddhists
  5. Really ask God to reveal where He is stirring my passion in, as I don’t think it’s at my current vocation (and to pay attention to His voice!)

Thank you Lord for speaking to me, even when I do not focus on You. May I recognize Your voice and not run away from Your words. Amen.

Sometimes it’s hard to figure out what is on God’s mind – why did you pull the rug from under me? I had it going so well, I had worked hard, do you have a clue what you are doing?

Yeah, that’s why He’s God and we’re not. When Jesus was hung on the cross, bystanders couldn’t comprehend why the king they had welcomed not too many days before, has fallen from grace. They didn’t know how to react, what else to pin their hopes on, who to turn to. The disciples ran away, they abandoned their lord and returned to their previous lives. What else could one do?

They didn’t know the miracle that would follow, they didn’t expect Jesus to come to them, they certainly didn’t imagine they’d go back to being disciples again and be remembered for what they’ve done for Jesus and the gospel!

It’s okay to feel disappointed and lost, God gave us soft hearts and feelings to go with it. But when we’re down and out, pray that we’ll recognize Jesus when He reaches out to us and ask us, “do you love me?”

“Yes, Lord I do. Coz you’ve walked with me, comforted me, gave me rest. Thank you for your grace, thank you.”